Memories
well jess another set back for us,Red has gone to heaven. red was just the best horse you could ask for. i loved to look across and see her run in the pasture, and roll in the grass and snow. i loved to take her for walks around town and through the fields. i keep looking over still expecting to see her only to realize she's not there. if we walked out the back door she would winney to say hi or more like hey i could use an apple or carrot lol. i picture you riding her with angel wings knowing she is with you makes it better. shine on red shine on!
happy 4th jessie-i'll always think of you when i hear fireworks.
June 27th. This weekend is another graduation with your mom giving away scholarships in your name to students from your high school. I was thinking back to your graduation and everyone missing you on your special day. The day after was Matt's graduation. The family met at your home for a get-together before they left to go back home. We all went to your grave site and STILL NO STONE had arrived. It started to rain so we all said our goodbyes and Steve, Laurie, Maddie and Grandma Fay started for home. As we drove away from the grave site a truck went by us. It was your marker. We turned around, went back and watched the men work in the pouring rain to get it placed. We called the others by phone to tell them to come back. As the men were finishing the sun came out and shown so brightly. We knew you were there with us as you are always with us. I will be back up ther in just two weeks for a visit. Hope to see all the gals at the Gal's. I do miss them as I miss you. Blessings Miss Jess. SHINE ON.
Thinking about you a lot lately Jessie. Miss going to the beach with you, miss playing frisbee and softball, miss those hot summer nights at the drive in. Miss everything to do with you. You have been popping up a few times recently in my dreams. I love it. Thank you Jessie. Wish they'd come true though. Can't believe it has been this long since I have seen you. NOT FAIR!
jessie one of my fondest memories was when we went to see the vietnam memorial wall in clayton. we took my old willys jeep with no top on it and on the way home you rode with me and it downpoored. i remember laughing all the way just getting drenched. and the time i came home and you and a friend had taken it for a ride and the battery fell out. the look on your face when i pulled in told me something happened and you were clearly upset. i immediately decided not to get upset and ease your mind. it was my fault for not strapping it down. the jeep was for you mainly i made sure you knew you could drive it as long as it was still safe to drive. after you passed away i couldn't drive it anymore. the girls wrote stuff on the hood in the dust and it sat in the barn,a memorial to you. now my new classic vehicle is a 55 chevy truck and i named it faye after your middle name. i will always keep this truck and cherish it. in your memory,i miss you everyday
Speaking of shaving cream, the first time I saw the shaving cream thing we were all at camp. I came out of the camp door and there on the deck were two snow persons. I didn't even recognize them there was so much white (shaving cream). Then that giggle. I knew then who they were. We sure did have some fun times there at camp. I think it will be moms (grandma Fay's) last time to see camp. I know she had some kind of closure thanks to your mom and aunt Laurie taking the time to give her constant care while she was there. I hear they had a few laughs also when your mom caught grandma trying to put wood in the stove from a wheel chair and the temp was 90 degrees outside and inside. Emelia and your mom both have done articles on Gardasil in the last month that were on the internet in Norma Ericksons (examiner.com) She has been working tirelessly to inform people of the horrors of this vaccine. I cried even before I started reading them because your picture was there also. Emelia's article was how life is now without your best friend. titled "One Less Best Friend". Your mom worked into the night to get her article to Norma. The title is "One Mother's Fight To Save Others". The war is still going on. Now boys are being targeted for the vaccine. We all continue to fight the good fight for you in your memory. The question in so many minds is HOW MANY MORE WILL HAVE TO DIE BEFORE THIS VACCINE IS REMOVED FROM THE MARKET. We miss you and Jon so very much. SHINE ON BOTH OF YOU. Blessings
yo yo jezzmo,hey its memorial day weekend lets go to camp.gramma fay is coming up from the nursing home,94 years young. say hi to holmes for me i miss him. watch over my sister kim for me jess she has cancer and been on chemo for over two years now. it really makes her tired for 4-5 days afterward. i miss ya,a daughter to me,the best a dad could wish for. just as i consider your mom my wife i thought of you as my daughter. shine on jezzmo,shine like an angel.
I remember every time you guys went to camp you had to go into town and spend a fortune on shaving creme just so you could have shaving creme fights with it. You guys would cover yourselves with it. There would be shaving creme floating over half of Echo Lake by the time you guys were done, and all over the beach, and all over the deck at camp. Love ya Jess, Mom
Hey Jess, Remember at camp when some old elderly woman stopped us and started talking to us. She asked if you were my mom. haha we both laughed and said we were best friends and in fact i was older. It was so funny. So I started to call you Mom and you called me daughter. So I guess I'll wish you a very Happy Mother's Day. lol. Miss and love you
May 4, 2010. I miss playing catch with the softball in the yard. I remember when I was your catcher and you were practicing your pitching in front of the garage door. You pitched the ball so hard and it bounced in front of me and came up and hit me right in the face. OUCH did that hurt, but we both kept going. We always tried to see who could throw the ball the hardest. I think you were amazed that I could keep up with you, as old as I was... Miss You. Mom P.S. Dylan bought a Corvette last week and let me drive it.
TODAY IS APRIL 27, 2010 MY 47TH BIRTHDAY, AND IT SNOWED. I GUESS IT MATCHED MY MOOD FOR THE DAY. CELEBRATING MY BIRTHDAY ANYMORE ISN'T FUN, IT'S HARD TO CELEBRATE ANYTHING ANYMORE. BIRTHDAYS MAKE ME THINK OF THE FUTURE AND HOW I DON'T HAVE A FUTURE WITH JESSIE IN IT AND IT DEPRESSES ME. I GOT WINDCHIMES FOR MY BIRTHDAY, I DO LIKE WINDCHIMES. AS OF TODAY JESSIE'S WEBSITE HAS BEEN VISITED 11,202 TIMES, AMAZING. ON JESSIE'S BIRTHDAY IN MARCH MOM SENT BALLOONS UP AND SHE GOT A RESPONSE FROM SOMEONE WHO FOUND HER BALLOONS. THEY WERE ON THE BEACH IN FLORIDA, JESSIE LOVED THE BEACH. THIS PICTURE WAS TAKEN ON JACKSONVILLE BEACH THE LAST TIME WE VISITED MY MOM IN FLORIDA. I BELIEVE IT WAS AUGUST OF 2007 AND I TOOK THE PICTURE. SHE IS SO BEAUTIFUL. I MISS YOU JESSIE SO MUCH. MOM
Hi Miss Jess,
I just had to tell you that so much is going on down here with Gardasil. India has had so much contriversy over it that they have taken it off the market. We are all hoping this will be the start of something here in the U.S. We have a letter writing campaign to the HHS secretary informing her that something must be done here. We continue to fight for you even though you have lost the fight and gone to that better place to walk the streets of gold with uncle Jon. Every day more and more speak out that their families have been affected with a daughter or friend that has started the fight to recover from the side effects of the vaccine or we have lost another young women. This fight will continue till it is removed from the market everywhere.
My thoughts are of you every day when I wake up, all through the day and as I crawl into bed at night. You and Jon are greatly missed. Your memorial garden is beautiful right now. The roses are all blooming with vivid REDS, PINK, AND WHITE. Your lamps shine on into the night to remind you that we will never forget how you shone in our lives and that we miss you so.
April 10, 2010 Saturday. This picture reminds me of you, so beautiful and bright and sunny. I took it last year in September. It is chilly today but the sun is peaking from the clouds. If it warms up some today I will try to get some of the garden planted, I miss your help with that. Because of your story about Gardasil and many of the girls in the United States, India has suspended the use of Gardasil because of deaths and injuries. I wish the U.S. would open their eyes. Your name is on the minds of many throughout the world who know the devastation that Gardasil has caused. I live with you everyday in my heart and soul, I just miss your touch. Love you Jess. Mom
happy easter jezzmo,! i bought a 55 chevy truck to restore and decided to name it FAYE after you. we miss you dearly girlfriend. life just isn't the same without you near. HAPPY EASTER
I miss you calling me Emilia Mary, and I miss yelling Jessie Faye. I miss driving around listening to the radio really loud. I miss yelling rude things out the window and throwing skittles at cars. I miss fighting over the red skittles, now I get them all. I miss sharing my bed and I miss my shopping buddy. I see Kota Morrow riding an electric scooter in town and it makes me sad. Remember how we doubled? I hate passing cops, because that was our future. I'm falling head over heals for a boy. You would just love him. I know he has your approval. I hate knowing that I'm gonna marry this one and my maid of honor wont be there. I hate you not here growing up with me. I hate how you can see us but we can't see you. I hate how I haven't felt you here lately. I'm so lonely. Everything has changed so much. I miss having my sister and my best friend here. I miss you soooooo much Jessie. I wish I could say that time heals but I feel like I'll be waiting forever. Happy Easter Jessie. I hope God gives you all a special day up there, and thank you Jessie for a beautiful God baby Onalee born on your birthday. I love you Jessie. Keeping my head up always for You, Lisa and Tim.
This is Onalee Nevaeh she was born March 27th, Happy birthday Jessie, Hillary, and Onalee
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESS! You are 20 today, 20 years old. Are Heaven years the same as Earth years? This morning we will do our balloon tribute to you again, maybe we will get an answer from someone that finds the balloons. I keep thinking of the first time we sent you balloons and how they made it to Vermont. The woman who found them just happened to be taking a walk on her property and the balloons had gotten tangled on an old fence. I still read the letter that she sent back to me and it still makes me cry. We write each other now and then and I hope some day to meet her.
We are still fighting against Gardasil and some progress has been made. The FDA actually met with a group of women who have done alot of research on Gardasil and represented all of the mothers who's daughters have been injured or have died because of this vaccine. I MISS YOU JESS SO MUCH. Look down from heaven in a few minutes to see your balloons coming. It's a beautiful sunny morning, but it's only in the 20's but spring is here. LOVE YOU SO. MOM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSIE FAYE SHINE ON!
hey jess,
i have sad news. we had to put down titter tat yesterday.
he had cancer and i hope you two can meet up sometime in heaven.
i know how much you loved to have him up there at camp, speaking of camp its really never been the same without you there on four of july or any other time. I'll never forge that shaving cream fight with you, dylan, leanne, and me we even got mama and papa in there too. I cant belive its been two years since we lost you. I never actually knew you could miss someone so much until i started missing you. all the memories we shared now resurface and makes me even more sad that you are gone. I just had wished someone had spoken up about gardasil sooner. it been really great hangin out with lisa and tim at camp all those times and it seems they can make it up to our house more often. well there is just one more thing to say right now. I LOVE YOU. dont you worry i'll keep on missin you.
EVERYDAY I THINK OF YOU, EVERYDAY I CRY, I WISH I HAD AN ANSWER, BUT ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY. AS I SIT HERE AND TYPE I HAVE A KNOCK AT THE DOOR AND A BEAUTIFUL BOUQUET OF FLOWERS IS DELIVERED. THERE ARE SO MANY DAYS THAT I CAN ONLY FOCUS ON THE LOSS AND THE GRIEF, BUT THEN SOMETHING LIKE THIS HAPPENS TO BRING ME OUT OF IT. I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR THE PEOPLE THAT I DO HAVE IN MY LIFE TO KEEP ME GOING AND NOT ALLOW ME TO DRIFT INTO THE DARKNESS.
MY SOUL MISSES YOU SO MUCH JESS, THERE IS AN EMPTINESS THAT WILL NEVER BE FILLED AGAIN.
THERE IS A PICTURE OF YOU WHEN YOU WERE ABOUT 8 OR 9, THAT WAS ON THE DOOR OF YOUR CLOSET. I BROUGHT IT DOWNSTAIRS TODAY AND PUT IT ON THE FRIDGE. YOU HAVE YOUR HAIR IN A PONY TAIL AND YOU TOOK SMALL BRANCHES FROM THE LILAC TREE AND STUCK THEM IN YOUR HAIR. YOU WERE HOLDING A BRANCH IN FRONT OF YOU ALSO, CLOSE TO YOUR CHEST. I CALL IT MY EARTH ANGEL PICTURE OF YOU, BECAUSE YOU DO LOOK LIKE ONE IN THAT PICTURE. EVEN THOUGH I CRY FOR YOU EVERYDAY, I STILL SMILE WHEN I THINK OF YOU. I LOVE YOU.
Hi Miss Jess,
Today, February 22nd marks our second year that you have been gone from us. I think back to all the fun times we had.
The ball games on the side yard when Mary and I came up for a visit. You and Matt nearly killed us. I could hardly walk the next day. Our bike ride around the block when I kept falling off the bike. The funny gulf game you taught me that I could actually win. I continue to miss your GIGGLE. IT HAS GONE FROM ME. 
I know you continue to smile down on us, you and Jonny. You both are never from our thoughts. It will shortly be your 20th birthday so we again will send you some balloons.
SHINE ON MISS JESS!!!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY JESSIE
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY JESSIE FAYE SHINE ON
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