Memories
I came by to see you
Oh I had to let you know
If I knew the last time that I held you was the last time
I'd have held you and never let go
It's keeping me awake nights, wondering
I lie in the dark, just asking why
I've always been told
You won't be called home
till it's your time
I guess heaven was needing a hero
Somebody just like you
Brave enough to stand up for what you believe
and follow it through
When I try to make it make sense in my mind
The only conclusion I come to is..
HEAVEN WAS NEEDING A HERO LIKE YOU
No matter how much I need you now, Heaven was needing you more
I miss You sooo much Jessie
jess the first annual jessica ericzon memorial golf tournament was a success. thanks to all who organized it for us. miss ya jess shine on
Gramma Dennie will be here!!!!!!!!
Only a few more days and I head north to be with your mom and Tim. I can't wait as it is so hot down here in Florida. Today it is almost 100. I just spoke to your mom and she said it is cool up there, "Bring sweatshirts and pants". This coming weekend we will be at the golf course between Omar and Lafargeville helping in what we hope will be an annual event for you. Your mom said, she has four more scholarships to give out at graduation. A memorial in your name. How special is that. You are helping 4 more students to better themselves. Your aunt Neva is coming with me this year. We will put her to work helping next weekend. Many of our family is planning to be there at graduation for moral support for your mom.
What a great story Emilia, about the banana and the banana splits. I can sure hear miss Jess laughing over that one. I do still hear her laugh and giggle. Can't wait to see all you girls as we pull up to THE GAL'S for icecream. I WILL ASK FOR A BANANA SPLIT!!!!
A quick funny story, that i know Jessie was laughing in Heaven about. Tonight while working at the gals I handed out a banana split and forgot to put the banana in it. The lady came back to the window 5 minutes later and told me that I forgot her banana. I laughed so hard and so did she. Thank god she wasn't mad. But anyways Jessie use to always pull this one and forget to put the banana in the banana splits she made. We'd always have to chase down the person and give them their banana. haha. Miss you Jessie
hi jess,summer is here and every day there are constant reminders of you. you always loved to help plant the garden and we'd plant sugar baby watermelons for you. Me and Mom are doin good,tryin to keep warm. The house is comin good lots of major projects this year. My landscaping customers aren't pressuring me to come work which is nice cause i can be home with mom. Lots goin on every weekend for the next two months is full.Thats about it best bud,i just wanted to talk to you. I miss ya Jess, i miss my girl.love ya lots shine on tim
MAY 28, 2009 WENT TO CAMP FOR THE MEMORIAL DAY WEEKEND TIM AND I. IT WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AT CAMP FOR ME. I KEEP THINKING THAT THINGS WILL GET BETTER BUT THEY DON'T. I DON'T REALLY CARE TO GO BACK BUT I WILL FOR MY FAMILY. MY GRANDMA FAY IS 93 AND SHE STILL GETS AROUND GREAT AND KEEPS THE WOODSTOVE STOKED SO IT'S 85 INSIDE AND EVERYONE COOKS. THE BEAVERS HAVE BEEN AT IT AGAIN AND THERE IS NO BEACH TO LOUNGE ON, BECAUSE THE OTHER END OF THE LAKE IS DAMMED UP. EVERYTIME SOMEONE GOES AND BREAKS DOWN THE DAM IT FLOODS OUT THE CAMPING GROUND THAT IS ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE ROAD. LAST YEAR IT DID ALOT OF DAMAGE AND THE D. E.C. SAID NO MORE. SO WE JUST BREAK LITTLE HOLES IN THE DAM NOW. GRANDMA NANCY WENT TO ORLANDO FOR HEATHER FEATHER'S GRADUATION AND I BELIEVE ALL IT HAS DONE IS RAIN HARD SO FAR. CONGRATULATIONS HEATHER YOU WORKED HARD. MY MOM WILL BE COMING TO STAY FOR A WHILE ON THE 18TH OF JUNE AND IS BRINGING MY AUNT NEVA FOR A STAY ALSO. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THEM TO GET HERE. HOPEFULLY THIS WEEKEND WILL BE NICE SO I CAN GET MY GARDEN PLANTED. I ALSO HAVE TO PLANT NANCY'S GARDEN SINCE SHE IS IN FLA. FOR THE NEXT MONTH. I'LL HAVE TO RECRUIT SOME HELP FROM THE GIRLS. LOVE YOU JESS SO MUCH WISH YOU WERE HERE. MOM
My cat Dori was hit by a car and killed last evening. Jessie loved Dori a lot. Every time she came over she would always call for him but instead of calling for Dori she would yell "here Dorris" I think it was just to bother me. She was a nut. She would beg for Dori to sleep on my bed with us too. Cause she knew how I hated Dori's black hair shedding on my white bedspread. But I always gave in and Dori would sleep with us. It was like losing another best friend last night. I have had him since I was in 7th grade. I guess Jessie just needed another friend with her in heaven. I pray that Jessie will take god care of him and kiss him every night for me. He likes to have his belly rubbed and he loves to be called "pork chop" now. Dad and I buried Dori today next to our old family dog in the back field with a little wooden cross. Today was an extra sad day for me. I miss you both Jessie and Dori.
hi jezzmo,comin to camp with us this weekend. ? we'll have fun
MAY 16, 2009. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY TODAY.. EXCEPT I MISS YOU SO MUCH, YOUR SMILE, YOUR LAUGH, YOUR GOOFYNESS, YOUR ENTHUSIASM FOR LIFE. I JUST MISS YOU MY DAUGHTER. LAST SUNDAY ON MOTHERS DAY A LILAC TREE WAS DEDICATED TO YOU, AND A PLAQUE WAS MADE SO PEOPLE WHO DON'T KNOW YOU WILL SEE THE TREE AND KNOW WHY IT IS THERE. IT'S A BEAUTIFUL LITTLE TREE AND I HOPE IT WILL LIVE FOREVER. IT'S PLANTED AT THE OMAR CHURCH, FROM ALL THE PEOPLE WHO KNEW JESS AND HER SPIRIT FOR LIFE. LOVE YOU JESSIE. MOM
Here it is May 8th already. Where does the time go. I have been on the chat room 'LETS TALK ABOUT GARDASIL. I joined about a month ago. It is the only one I go to. There are many moms and dads that have daughters that are suffering with all the side effects imagineable from the killer gardasil. A new father that just joined because his daughter has had one shot and is suffering. He works in the medical profession and has no idea what to expect so is asking for help. One of the questions he asked was " Has tissue samples been taken from any of these gardasil girls". I told him that there has been samples taken and tested, but they show nothing that has caused the deaths. More and more is being found about Merck and the lies they have been telling. Still there is no way to prove that gardasil is the killer. Only the girls who are suffering and those that have died are the proof. So many of the parents are becoming so frustrated as no one seems to listen. Many doctors will not even treat a girl that has had a shot and is having side effects. Many are saying, it will not be long until this killer is removed from the public. But still more and more of our girls are dying. How much longer we ask? We do this for you Miss Jess. We will keep fighting until the end of gardasil. You are so missed. Shine on Miss Jess.
HI JESS, IT'S MAY 1ST THIS YEAR IS ALMOST HALF OVER IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT. THE GRIEF IS STILL LIKE QUICKSAND TO ME, I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING NOWHERE. I STILL FEEL GUILTY WHEN I LAUGH OR SING, OR DO SOMETHING THAT SHOULD BE FUN. I MISS YOU DEEP IN MY SOUL. YOU ARE SO MUCH A PART OF ME AND I FIND IT HARD TO FUNCTION WITHOUT YOU. THE GIRLS WILL BE HOME FROM COLLEGE, SO WE CAN GET TOGETHER AGAIN, I MISS THEM ALSO. I LOVE YOU.
Happy Birthday Lisa
Happy Birthday Mama Lisa...I love You! xoxo
hi jezzmo, well today is the 22nd. a year and 2 months ago our world turned upside down. When i go and stand in front of your stone i just feel like your not there. your home with us,your the wind in the trees when we are walking in the woods,your the sunshine that warms us on cold mornings,your the rain that pings off the roof of the barn,your the snowflakes so big and fluffy floating down to the ground. sounds silly but i'm afraid to kill bugs for fear it may be you coming to visit. lol i miss my best bud! i miss laughing together. i miss you flying in the door at night bounding with energy rambling on a mile a minute about your day. i miss listening to your problems with boys or the new girls on the cheerleading squad who just don't listen. i miss watching you pitch your heart out to make the cut. i miss having you mow the lawn 100 miles an hour on the riding lawn mower. i miss kickin your but in horse and letting you win once in awhile. i miss your energy, your enthusiasm, your love of life,your search for the good and fun in everything. i miss all the girls coming over and listening to you laugh and giggle til four in the morning. even though i know your always near,you seem so far. i know that as your mom and i grow old together somehow it will get easier. right now it seems impossible but i'm committed to helping her through the most terrible thing a mom could ever endure. she is amazing,i am soooo lucky.
.......and Jessie would tell you mama Lisa the exact same thing. Actually she told me that once. How you were her best friend also. I remember laying beside her in her bed and we would always talk. Talk about everything, mostly our guy talk (Jacob Boyle and Ian of course)....and sneaking out of the house but she told me that. I remember everything like we just talked yesterday. I never forget. That's why its so crazy that it has been over one year already. While driving I look around and honestly almost everything has a story. And if not I can remember a certain song that would be busting out of the speakers in the Barbie jeep. I went for a four wheeler ride the other day by myself down the tracks. I couldn't help but remember how Jessie and I did that often. I came to the road crossing (Fox hill road) and there is an old house that's been abandoned for years due to a fire. Very unsafe probably but Jessie and I always wanted to park the four wheeler behind the house and go in and explore. We would say this and think about doing it every four wheeler ride down there. However, I always was chicken shit we would get caught. But not Jessie, she always was the braver one of us that's for sure. Also this weekend while I'm home from college I saw our neighbors little girls age 11 or 12 and they were in our fields exploring. Rain and all nothing stopped them. I watched as they walked down the creek in their tall water boots out there for hours. This also reminded me of Jessie and I. We would explore things and different ares in my fields all the time. We would also explore out back of Jessie's house all the time. Mama Lisa would ring the lunch bell and dinner bell when it was time to come eat. We had sooo much fun as kids. This weekend was def. a good weekend for me filled with so many wonderful memories all in which brought a huge smile to my face. Thank you Jessie. I love you!
APRIL 18, 2009 A RAINY SPRING DAY. THE BULBS ARE STARTING TO FLOWER, THE GRASS IS TURNING GREEN AND THE TREES ARE STARTING TO BUD. THIS WAS MY FAVORITE TIME OF YEAR AND YOURS BECAUSE IT WAS SOFTBALL SEASON AND YOU LOVED TO PLAY SOFTBALL WITH THE TEAM. i MISS GOING TO YOUR GAMES AND CHEERING FOR THE TEAM. I MISS EVERYTHING THAT HAS TO DO WITH YOU. MY GRIEF HASN'T LESSENED AND EVERY DAY I REMEMBER THE DAYS BEFORE YOU PASSED. ALL THE FUN WE USED TO HAVE, YOU WERE MORE LIKE MY BEST FRIEND THAN MY DAUGHTER. MANY DAUGHTERS GAVE THEIR MOTHERS MANY CHALLENGES TO TRY TO OVERCOME. NOT YOU, YOU WERE ALWAYS THE BEST KID A MOTHER COULD ASK FOR. AT TIMES I BELIEVE THE FATHER ABOVE KNEW YOU WOULDN'T BE WITH ME FOR LONG, SO HE FASHIONED YOU TO BE THE BEST DAUGHTER A MOM COULD WANT. i MISS YOU MORE THAN LIFE.
Happy Easter Jessie !!!
"Loved ones she left behind
Just trying to survive
And understand the why
Feeling so lost inside
Anger shot straight at God
Then asking for his Love
Empty with disbelief
Just hoping that maybe
She flew up to Heaven on the wings of Angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
She walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me
It's hard to say goodbye
Her picture always in my mind
They'll always be of times I'll cherish
And I won't cry because
She flew up to Heaven on the wings of Angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
She walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me"
Happy Easter Jessie! I miss you so much xoxo
Hi Jess, April 10th is my cousin April Fitchettes birthday, as you know she is celebrating her birthday in heaven. Would you give her a big hug for me and tell her Happy birthday Boo. Happy Easter to both of you. I love ya's
everybunny loves you
April 4th, 2009 It's a rainy dreary day today in more than one way. Today was supposed to be the day that 60 minutes from Australia was coming to my home for an interview. Because of some unforseen circumstances on their end they were unable to come this time. They assured me that they will do the interview in the future. I have my doubts though. Grandma Dennie is here from Florida, she came for the interview, but since that isn't happening we will do some visiting today. Also tomorrow is a baby shower for the twins Jessie and Melana, so mom and I will go to the shower.
Love you Jess. Mom
Jessie,
You are truly the greatest cousin anyone could have asked for. You have touched me in such a way that I could never forget you. I think about you everyday. I miss you so much and I still cannot believe it has been so long since I have seen you.
I still rememeber the last day that I saw you. It was my sisters wedding, March 17, 2007....over 2 years! I still can't grasp that concept. This picture is the last picture and last memory with you. We did not want to seperate that day. I wanted you to stay down here in Florida with me forever. I hated that you had to go home so soon, All that I remember is us crying to eachother and telling eachother goodbye.I love you so much hunny. Some days are harder than others but I know that you are right here with me and getting me through them. Continue to watch over us and keep us safe.
Forever in our Hearts 
Love always,
Heather Feather
Happy Birthday my baby. To be 19 and in Heaven, what a way to celebrate. This past year has been a true challenge to get through, a challenge at times I didn't think I was up to. So many things have happened in that time though that has confirmed my belief that you are by my side more than I know. I could never list them all, but if you go back thru your website to the beginning I believe most of our challenges and victories are all there. Over 5,873 visits have been posted on this website since last year and it just keeps growing, Thank you to all who have shared their stories and given their support. This morning we sent balloons up again for your birthday. I don't know where they will end up but last year the balloons were found in Vermont and returned to me with a very special letter from the woman who found them. About a week ago I received a large bouquet of carnations from the same woman who found the balloons. Thank you Karlene.
I also want to thank Connie for setting up this website it has truly been a gift to us.
The people I have been in contact with over the last year has been a help to me, knowing that I am not alone in this fight against Gardasil. I keep fighting everyday for you Jess and the girls like you who have lost their lives or had their health taken away. This next Saturday I will be interviewed by 60 Minutes from Australia. They are sending a crew to America to investigate the affects of Gardasil on our young women. Gardasil was created in Australia and sold to Merck who is marketing it. Now, with all the questions surrounding this vaccine, Australia is willing to put it under a microscope.. I pray everyday that Gardasil will be removed from the market and I am trying to do my part in this. I think America needs to take a part in it also. For you Jess. I Love You. MOM
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