Jessica Faye Ericzon - Online Memorial Website

Jessie Girl,
It is your 19th birthday! Gosh never did we ever even think about turning 19. We were always so excited just to be turning 18 years old last year. But now were 19. You're always the last one to turn. Elaina, Sarah and I are already 19. We always wait for you to turn, then were all the same age. I always send you a text message at midnight to wish you a happy birthday but instead I will send you your message on your web page. Not to long ago you paid me a little visit and I thank you for that very much. It always lets me know your still okay without me up there. It's been a very tough road. Hardly anything easy about it that's for sure. I am almost done with this semester of college. Six more weeks and I will be home for good. I just can't wait. All the LA Gurls plan on scooping ice cream at the Gal's Place this summer again. I am trying to recruit Amanda to work there with us also. My future plans have been changing so much that I am just so unsure about anything right now. I have no idea if I will be returning here to Plattsburgh State in the fall or if I will continue somewhere else. I'm sure I will find my way though. A birthday in heaven thou Jessie you must be getting spoiled with anything you want, and doing whatever you want to. Enjoy your day Jessie. I wish you were here, I miss you so much!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL,  SHINE ON!

Jessica,

It's almost time for your Birthday Honey, and I know this will be a very difficult time for Mommy and the rest of your family.

My prayer for them is that they find peace in their hearts, knowing that you are safe in Jesus's arms and watching over them.

We will be leaving for Georgia on sat, and we'll take Hillary with us,she celebrated her birthday last week because she thinks its to hard to celebrate without you,she will continue to bring you a gift each year.We all love you Sweetheart and miss you

IT SADDENS US TO SAY THAT 15 YEAR OLD JENNY TETLOCK PASSED AWAY LAST SUNDAY AFTER BATTLING COMPLICATIONS FROM GARDASIL. TUCK HER UNDER YOUR WING JESSIE AND PROTECT HER, I KNOW YOU ALREADY HAVE. GUIDE US THROUGH THE UPCOMING MEDIA EVENT AND PROTECT YOUR MOM FROM ANY BAD THINGS THAT COULD HAPPEN. I MISS YOU SOOOOO MUCH JESS, HANGIN OUT, LAUGHIN, ACTIN GOOFY. YOUR SPIRIT LIVES ON FOREVER, I LEARNED SO MUCH FROM YOU. SHINE ON! TIM

Hi Miss Jess,  Only two more weeks and you will be celabrating another birthday.  So much is happening now with your mom and her invalvement with the Gardasil "war".  Just a short time ago she told me we were at a stand still it seemed. But God does answer prayers as I have been praying for more to happened that we could become invalved in.  It is happening.  Now that I have my typing hand back I can get to work on the Oprah DVD I want to send out.  I have been in contact with Leslie Botha the advocate for womens issues.  It was her radio program that your mom, Tim and I were on out of Colorado.  She had moved to Florida just reciently.  We have talked about meeting.  I had the idea to invite her here to talk.  I asked her and she said, she would love to come.  Oh what a BIG can of worms we could open up here in our area.  I had planned to speak at our church and present information about vaccines and Gardasil.  Now I can do it with her here also.  I hope to speak to groups and let them know what is happpening.  Then have Leslie come and speak.  So many are helping to spread the word.  We do this for you Miss Jess.  Shine on.  

March 12, 2009  This week I have had a few surprises, just like Emilia, Hillary and Collin did last week with Jessie visiting all of them in ONE night. On Sunday March 7th, Jessie's name sake and her sister were born.  What a surprise, they were 2 months early but all are doing well, even mom.  Then on Tuesday night I get a long distance phone call, like Australia long distance.  The producer of the equivalent of 60 minutes in Australia called to tell me that they are doing a show on the affects of Gardasil.  Her crew is coming to America to do some interviews and she wanted to know if I would like to participate.  Of course I said yes.  So very soon I hope to receive a phone call for a date with an Australian 60 Minutes.  Another surprise awaited me today when I got home from work. A big box of flowers. It was a huge bouquet of every color purple carnation. The card with it said, I think of you often. The color of these flowers look like the dress Jessie wore to her prom.  These are to get you through to her birthday. It was signed by Karlene.  She is the woman who found our balloon tribute to Jessie last year on her birthday in Vermont. Karlene sent us the balloons back with a lovely letter and Pussy Willow cuttings.  I was so honored that she remembered and I am so thankful to her.  We will be sending another balloon tribute up on Jessie's birthday this year on March 27th.  Maybe the balloons will end up in Vermont again.  I Love you Jess and hate that you are not with us.  Mom

GOOD MORNING JESS.IT'S FEB 28TH. THE END OF FEBRUARY.  LAST SUNDAY WHILE AT OUR GATHERING AFTER CHURCH, A SPECIAL PERSON BROUGHT A JOURNAL TO PASS AROUND FOR EVERYONE TO WRITE IN.  THE ONE THAT TOUCHED MY HEART THE MOST WAS THE ONE ABOUT RACHEL SCOTT.  IT SAYS THAT SHE WAS THE FIRST ONE TO DIE IN THE COLUMBINE SHOOTING.  SHE HAD OUTLINED HER HANDS ON THE BACK OF HER DRESSER AND WROTE " THESE ARE THE HANDS OF RACHEL  JOY SCOTT, AND WILL SOMEDAY TOUCH MILLIONS OF HEARTS" THE JOURNAL ENTRY SAID THAT JESSIE WAS ALOT LIKE RACHEL THAT JESSIE HAS TOUCHED EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US.

      IN MY HEART I KNOW SOMEDAY JESSIE WILL TOUCH MILLIONS OF HEARTS ALSO.  THANK YOU TAYLOR. LOVE YOU.  LISA 

 

 

Well Jessie......as I am sure you can tell.....the pitchers and catchers have been working a little bit the past few weeks getting ready for the upcoming season.  We came in over vacation and couldn't help but be reminded of the tragic week just one year earlier.  I wanted you to know not much was said, but we were all thinking of you.  It was a nice feeling to remember you coming in last year over vacation working on your pitchers.  It was nice to look at some of the girls that are pitching and think how much they have a work ethic much like you had.  Watch over us this year again Jessie....you will be in our thoughts always.  We miss you so much!

Jessie,

 

            Sorry, I haven’t written on your website until now. I started writing many times, but always erased it; because I couldn’t find the right words to explain what I was thinking or feeling at the time.

            I can’t believe it’s been a year since you’ve been gone, it seems like only yesterday you were standing in our dining room admiring yourself in your Christmas ball gown; while all the other girls were upstairs getting ready. It didn’t bother you that my mom was sitting in her pajamas right their watching you, or that my brothers were in the other room watching you. As you were twirling in front of the mirror, I noticed your radiance and confidence. You had more confidence then any girl I knew.

            I’ve always wanted to tell you the following story, but never had the opportunity. Remember, our family trip to Water Safari that you accompanied us on; well during that trip an old lady stopped me and asked if Elaina and I were twins, and I said, “No.” The old lady then said, “Then those two must be twins,” pointing to you and Emilia, and I said “no.” Then she said, “Really, you all look alike, you must all be sisters.” At that moment I looked forward at you and Emilia walking, and said, “Yes we are.” From that moment forward I always considered you one of my sisters (plus you and Emilia were inseparable).

            I remember getting the call that something had happened. Elaina, mom, and I were at Price Chopper packing the groceries in the van (and you know my mom and groceries), when Emilia called from New Hampshire crying, and looking for answers. At that moment I had never felt so many emotions at one time in my life. I was in denial, angry, mad, sad, bewildered and full of questions. I have never felt so bewildered in my life. How could God take you away from all of us, you were so young and had so much going for you?

            That’s when I turned to God and realized you weren’t gone. I see you everyday; you’re in my sister’s smile, in the laughter around me, in the sunshine, in the snow (Thank you for a beautiful winter-I know your giving Mother Nature some good advice), and in the flowers that will hopefully start to bloom (). You’re the sunshine that opens each morning. Continue to Shine on  Jessie Faye

                                                  I love and miss you,

                                                    Alicia

 

P.S. Thanks for staying by Emilia’s side. She went back to Plattsburgh toady. I know you would be so proud of her, I am. Continue to give Tim and Lisa strength, I know this weekend will be difficult, but I truly believe with you by our sides we can get through anything.   

 

Hey Jessie gurl,
Today marks exactly one year that you have been gone. For sure it has been like a rollercoaster ride. Somedays I feel like I just saw you last week and other days it feels like you have been a million miles away for a year. Mama Lisa, Tim, Matt and I all went up and lit a candle a the cemetary for you last night. I often think of you when I hear this song:

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe your gone

It ain't fair you died to young
Like a story that had just begun
The death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing know one can take your place
Sometimes I wonder who you'd be today

I miss you so much buddy, more then anyone could ever even imagine. Please continue to bring strength to your mother and Tim. I love them both so much. I miss you Jessie and I love you always and forever

FEB. 21, 2009 HI JESS, TONIGHT WE WILL LIGHT A CANDLE FOR YOU AT THE CEMETERY. TOMORROW THERE WILL BE A SPECIAL SERVICE AT OMAR CHURCH FOR YOU. EVERYDAY THERE IS A SPECIAL PRAYER I SAY.  YEARS AGO WHEN I SAW IT, THE PRAYER DIDN'T HAVE MEANING TO ME BUT NOW IT HAS A VERY SPECIAL MEANING:  GOD GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE, THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE. I PRAY FOR THIS EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE NOW. A YEAR AGO TONIGHT YOU AND I WILL SIT ON THE COUCH AND DO A SUDOKU PUZZLE TOGETHER.  YOU WILL TELL ME THAT YOUR HEAD HURTS AGAIN, THE SPOT BEHIND YOUR LEFT EAR CLOSE TO THE BACK OF YOUR HEAD. I WILL TELL YOU TO TAKE SOME TYLENOL AND YOU SHOULD BE FINE IN THE MORNING. AT 9PM I WILL SAY GOOD NITE AND I LOVE YOU AND GIVE YOU A KISS. YOU WILL SAY GOOD NITE I LOVE YOU TOO.  I WILL SAY SEE YOU TOMORROW. MY LIFE WILL CHANGE FOREVER WHEN I COME HOME FROM WORK THE NEXT DAY. GOD HOW I WISH I COULD GO BACK IN TIME.  I LOVE YOU JESS.

I thought I should write to you tonight while I am on your web site miss Jess.  I have been reading many of the well over 4000 remarks on the petition that is being signed to remove Gardasil from the market.  President Obama said,  He is concerned with how the people feel and wants to hear from the people.  SO a petition was started to remove this so called wonder vaccine off the shelves and also off the market, with the hopes of having at least 30,000 signatures.  I was #33 and I was amazed that in the first day over 200 people signed it.  So many people who knew of a girl or woman who died or had an adverse reaction.  If this does not draw attention to what is happeneng to our girls I don't know what will.  As Tim said,  Today you received your third shot one year ago.  It doesn't seem as thou you have been gone from us for a year.  Time does go by so fast.  But it has been a year and the pain is still there.  We still cry because we STILL MISS YOU SO VERY VERY MUCH.  We do know that you and Jon are walking on streets of gold and are having the time of your life up there.  I watch your STAR each night and know that your love is shining down on us all.  Help your MOM and TIM this weekend get through this hardest of time.  Show them you are still with them. Give them much to laugh about as you always made them laugh.  That life still can be good.  Shine on Miss Jess.

A YEAR AGO TODAY ON A RECOMENDATION OF THE FAMILY DOCTOR YOU GOT YOUR THIRD GARDASIL SHOT, IT WAS SUPPOSED TO SAVE YOUR LIFE. INSTEAD IT TOOK YOU AWAY FROM US. I KNOW YOUR HELPING US GET THIS AWFUL VACCINE OFF THE MARKET. I MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH JESSIE. THIS WEEKEND WILL BE HARD ON EVERYONE,I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT WE WILL TRY AND CELEBRATE YOUR LIFE AND SPIRIT. SHINE JESSIE SHINE 

HI JESS I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I STILL HEAR YOU COMING IN THE BACK DOOR KICKING OFF YOUR SHOES AND YELLING HOLA MOMMY.

THANK YOU JESSIE!!

January 8, 2009 I think this year we will see many more deaths and injuries from this vaccine Gardasil. Already I know of 4 deaths and many injuries that I have spoken to personally. It is just devastating to hear about their stories. For the girls that are still alive. Ashley and Kirstie they may never be the same, and when I speak to their mom's my heart goes out to them, because they don't know what will happen from day to day or even hour to hour. It makes me so angry to hear about the Dr's not being able to explain what is wrong with the girls so they say it's all in their heads. The Dr's should be ashamed of themselves. How many girls have to be sacrificed before Merck even takes notice. I'm so angry at Merck and I hope someday they will pay for this nightmare that is happening to our girls. I spoke to Karen who is Megan's mom. Megan died in the shower in November of 2008 and the autopsy report was ready on Christmas Eve. No cause, death undetermined just like Jessie and still Merck is sweeping all of our lives under the rug, it means nothing to them . Karen doesn't know where to go from here and I can't tell her because I don't know. What we are doing about getting the word out just isn't fast enough. There are so many people who still don't know how dangerous and deadly Gardasil can be. We are writing to all of congress my mom in Florida is getting a video ready to send to Oprah and who ever else may listen and she is also getting together an informational seminar that she will have take place in her church and she is inviting everyone, my mom is the best and it is because of Jessie that we are still going and going. Jessie's website will be down from the 9th until the 18th because memories is moving from Europe to the USA. But it will be back up and running again. P.S. Jessie loved snowboarding and now is the perfect weather for it. Lots of snow. Love you Jess. MOM

JANUARY 4TH, 2009. THE START OF A NEW YEAR, I DON'T KNOW WHAT THIS YEAR HAS IN STORE FOR US BUT IT HAS TO BE BETTER THAN LAST YEAR GOD WILLING. I AM TO BECOME A GOD MOTHER IN MAY TO A TWIN WHO WILL BARE JESSIE'S NAME. I FEEL VERY HONORED TO HAVE JESSIE'S NAME BESTOWED ON A NEW LIFE. I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO MEETING HER. I MISS YOUR SPIRIT SO MUCH, YOU WERE ALWAYS THE LIFE OF THE PARTY!

2008 has not been a very good year for us.  Now with the start of a new year 2009, things should be better in this new year if we can just get thru the month of February.  Keeping busy is the key.  I spoke to your mom yesterday and she had quite an interesting  story to tell.  It seems you will have a baby girl named after you this year and your mom will be the god mother.  A young couple that live down the road from your house will be having twins and they asked your mom if it would be alright to name one of the twins after you.  How about that.  God sure does move in mysterious ways.  We miss you so very much over the holidays.  I just couldn't get into the spirit of Christmas this year.  With time and keeping busy your leaving us will be a little better as time does heal wounds but you will always be greatly missed.  I see your star every night shining brightly for all to see.  Shine on Miss Jess.

LOVE YA JESS HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS MY BABY. CHRISTMAS SHOULD NEVER BE FILLED WITH PAIN BUT THIS CHRISTMAS IS FOR ME. I MISS YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY. I DID GET A BIG "HI" FROM YOU THIS MORNING, LITERALLY. IT'S THOSE LITTLE THINGS THAT TELL ME YOUR STILL WITH ME. AND RIGHT KNOW AS I WRITE, ON THE TV IS A SONG THAT WAS ON THE CD THE GIRLS MADE FOR YOU. I"M IN HEAVEN. I KNOW YOU ARE, AND THAT GIVES ME SO MUCH PEACE. I LOVE YOU.

Merry Christmas Jessie,
Enjoy your day, and we all will try to too. We miss you sooo much. I'm sure Christmas in heaven is amazing. I think you and your love for snow is wearing off on me finally. I have already been out to build one snowman, planning to learn how to snowboard with Collin at dry hill over break, and asked for a snowmobile suit for Christmas. What have you done to me? lol. I love you forever and always Jessie!

I MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH JESSIE!!!

hi jezzmo, whats crackin? ty for coming to see mom in her dreams. give Holmes a hug for me. Give us the strength and courage to make it through Christmas sweets. We put up all the lights for you. We'll have as much of a normal Christmas as possible. I remember last year we pulled a fast one and surprised you with your laptop computer. Mom uses it often and we got oodles of tunes in your itunes library. We gave Matt the snowboard pants i gave you,he came over for supper the other night and all is well with him and dad as you probly already know. Thanks for watchin out for me during my recent medical testing,last thing mom needed was bad news. The girls are home from college for quite awhile,hope we can get together and make some fun. It was hard knowing you should have been coming home yesturday with them. I still have the Christmas card you got me last year and listen to it often,i laugh and cry every time. Red is home for the winter out in the barn,shes such a great horse. Mom got an awesome new Jeep,you'd definately approve of it. Keep bringing me Gardasil info and guide me so we can kick some butt. I am going to send a letter to every politician in the country here shortly. I emailed the FBI to see if they can help and sent them the documents i found proving the FDA lied and Merck mislead the public. Going to have to go national with it i'm afraid to get the word out. Hopefully we can stear them in the right position and not let it become a circus. I'm having a hard time working at the hospital knowing they still give the Gardasil shot and refuse to stop. They are lucky i work there cause i'd be out front with a big sign. We put a few posters in town warning parents about Gardasil and asking them to research it before they let there daughters get the vaccine. I felt bad when your friends came over to talk with the reporters because they didn't know many facts,they should have been the first ones we contacted. They were soooo brave Jezz it was sooo awesome of them to do that for us. Well there cupcake i goota split,building a bathroom at work for the new training room. SHINE ON !!!  

December 8th is here and we have been moving along at a snails pace with Gardasil.  Your mom and I have been on two talk shows recently which has a lot of listeners.  We hope that those hearing our voice will take heed.  There have been more deaths and many more with adverse reactions to the vaccine.  We keep chipping away telling all who will listen.  The wheels are still turning and we do have others who are telling their story about gardasil.  It will take time and so many more will die but we will win in the end. We are doing it for you Miss Jess and the families we are stopping from receiving the vaccine. Shine on Miss Jess. 

The last full week here at college then I'm home for 50 days....I can't wait. It's been such a hard few months being here. But I made it. I forgot the rat turd pillow of Jessie's at home when i was home for thanksgiving. Now i don't have it for the week.  :'(

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