No matter how much I need you, I guess Heaven needed you more :(

hello jezzmo,i remember when we went to asable chasm. you emelia were playing frisbee and somehow got it caught in the tree. you guys were gigglin away standing on this old rickety picnic table trying to get it back. then you were out in the woods doing a fashion shoot with cowboy hats on. you and your partner in crime talked your mom into letting you take the jeep to town and some boys you were flirting with followed you back to camp. had a blast playing games with you guys. the raft ride wasn't much to talk about but still fun. i think of you every day and miss your energy,your enthusiasm,your laughter,,your innocent nature and most of all you and your mom wrestling and giggling,and you guys combing and brading each others hair.

Jess,

 You have been on my mind so much lately,I keep thinking about you being Jacobs first girlfriend,you two were so cute. Then how you, Jacob & Emilia became such good friends.

He seems to be kinda lost wothout the two of you girls..It's good that him & Emilia do get to see each other once in awhile.

 Just want you to know that you will never be forgotten Darlin and I think of you most days.

Keep your little light shining Hun,It keeps your family going

Love you and miss you

It has been several months since I have written to you miss Jess.  I have been so busy with so much going on in my life right now. The holidays are over and I can breath again.   I also CRY every time I get on your web site so I have not been here.  Now that we have a new year ahead of us I want to reflect back on so many things.  I see that in just a few days over 77 people have read your messages. You are thought of so aften by so very many people.  As I reflect back over all the wonderful times we have had, I continue to wonder why you were taken from us at so young an age.  I have a good friend that handed me a bible verse one Sunday not to long ago.  The verse is found in Isaiah 57: 1 & 2.  It explains a lot and answers the big question WHY!  Look it up and it may answer a question you have been asking yourself also.  There are also other reasons that we will continue to discover in the years to come.  I continue to think of you Jess and Jon each day that I am here on this earth.  I too cry each day as your faces go before me.  We had so many good times to remember and they will sastain us each day.  I have been corrisponding by phone with a woman that read your story on the web site lets talk about Gardasil. She has two daughter's that were about to have the vaccine given to them.  She called to ask me what I thought.  I told her she must research all she can and make her decision as to what she thinks is right.  I gave her several sites to explore and told her " If they were my daughter's I would give them as few shots as I could.  I have learned so much with all the research I have done in the last few years.  The whole drug problem we have in this country and the over vaccinating of our children is causing so many problems in our children.  Something has to be done and we continue to fight the good fight.
It is such a shame it is taking so many of our children. 
SHINE ON MISS JESS AND JON. 

January 6, 2011.  Over 20,297 visits to your website. that to me is unbelievable.  It would be nice if some of the visitors would leave a memory, or just say HI.  Just click on Memories at the left side of the webpage and then scroll all the way to the bottom where it says share your memories.

I'm using your laptop so I can change the color and font so I can make it more interesting.  I picked a picture first just because.  It's of you Jess, Emilia and Maddy sitting on the dock at camp in the summer time just enjoying the water and the peace and quiet.  I miss having you at camp, it's not the same and never will be.  Even though it's in the teens tonight just looking at this picture gives me a warm feeling.

Tim and I moved your bed into the spare bedroom yesterday and we purchased a Futon to put in it's place.  It was delivered today and fits nicely where your bed was.  Now we can watch T.V. upstairs or we can have company stay the night.  I still can't take your stuff off the walls, I don't know if I ever will.  I'm taking baby steps as some of you that have lost a loved one know.  Miss you Jess.

happy new year jess. hope we get an answer in 2011.

Merry Christmas Jessie. I love you and I miss you. Christmas in Heaven has to be so magical

merry christmas jezzmo, love ya lots, miss ya much  throwin in a cute pic to make you laugh.

December 18, 2010. This is Christmas #3 without you to help us celebrate and decorate and just having fun being together as a family. No matter how hard I try I just can't be in the holiday mood. I saw Sarah the other day, she had just arrived home from college and they had to drive through a major snow storm to get here. Now we are waiting for Elaina to get home today from LONDON. That reminds me of a dream I had not to long ago, where all of us were outside of Emilia and Elaina's house, even Jessie was there and we were all laughing and hugging each other because Elaina was home, she had just arrived home safely. I WANT TO SAY THANK YOU TO ALL OF THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE VISITED JESSIE'S WEB SITE. AS OF TODAY THERE HAS BEEN 18,851 VISITS. I'M NOT SURE HOW ALL OF YOU FOUND YOUR WAY HERE BUT I JUST HAVE TO SAY THANK YOU FOR TAKING THE TIME TO VISIT. IT MEANS ALOT TO ME. JUST PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD ABOUT GARDASIL AND JESSIE AND MAYBE WE CAN SAVE ONE MORE LIFE. THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU WHO KNOW JESSIE AND KEEP VISITING AND WRITING ABOUT YOUR MEMORIES, I LOVE TO HERE THE STORIES. Merry Christmas. Mom

I miss you so much :( Remember we put on these goggles and we had to run up to school to pick up Mitch from basketball so we wore them in your jeep. We rolled down the windows and stuck our faces out with our big snowboarding goggles and tried to catch snow flakes on our tongue. It was one of the first snow falls that winter. We laughed so hard you almost made me pee my pants. I'm so alone without you

happy thanksgiving jess. this is the time of year when we are reminded to be thankful for all we are blessed with. even if we can't physically see you or be with you i feel like you are here. i am thankful for getting a chance to know you. for learning what fun is again, for having a chance to finally have a daughter and to be looked at as a father figure and best bud at the same time. i am truly thankful for becoming soulmates with your mom. she is my partner for life. how lucky and fortunate can a guy be to have met you both and to have a chance to share your lives. even though ours was cut short and we don't even know what happened somehow we find comfort knowing your still here watching over us. i love you jess and miss you very much. happy turkey day

This time of year is always so hard for me and for your whole family. You loved thanksgiving, your favorite holiday was Christmas and most of all you loved the snow fall. And can not forget Black Friday shopping. I miss you more then ever! Been thinking about you way to much lately, have not been sleeping good. Please be with your mom and Tim for the holidays. I love you Jessie.

NOVEMBER 13, 2010. AS OF TODAY THERE HAS BEEN 16,960 VISIT'S TO YOUR WEBSITE JESS, AMAZING . THIS TIME OF YEAR IS SUCH A STRUGGLE TO GET THROUGH WITH ALL THE HOLIDAY FESTIVITIES. I WENT SHOPPING LAST WEEKEND FOR TWO SOLID DAYS. I DID GOOD ON THE FIRST DAY WHEN WE WENT TO GENEVA AND THE OUTLET MALLS, BUT WHEN WE WERE IN SYRACUSE SHOPPING IT DEPRESSED ME. EVERYTHING I SAW I WOULD THINK THAT WOULD BE A GOOD CHRISTMAS PRESENT FOR YOU. I FINALLY BROKE DOWN AND CRIED IN FRONT OF THE KARMELKORN STORE BECAUSE I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU LIKE THE STUFF. I GOT MY HAIR CUT AT THE SPUR OF THE MOMENT WHICH MADE ME FEEL BETTER ALSO. WORK HAS BEEN VERY STRESSFUL AFTER THE MOVE INTO THE NEW PAVILLION. WE DON'T HAVE ENOUGH STAFF FOR THE THINGS THEY WANT US TO DO AND IT'S VERY FRUSTRATING NOT TO GET IT DONE. I HAVE BEEN WORKING 10 TO 12 HOUR DAYS JUST TO TRY TO GET THINGS DONE AND TO HELP ALL MY CO-WORKERS. LOVE YOU JESS, WATCH OVER MATT, EMILIA AND ELAINA.

I need you Jessie more then ever right now. I need you to watch over my grandma. She is not doing well at all. A cat scan tomorrow tells us exactly how long she'll have left and how fast the bleeding is progressing in her brain. If anything happens to my Grandma while Elaina is in London, she will never forgive herself. You need to give my grandma the strength, so when we can tell Elaina that Grandma is going to be fine and she wont have to worry. Please Jessie, please just watch over her in that hospital bed. She's alone and she misses my Grandpa, I know she does but please she can do this. Please help her. I love you Jessie and I love you Grandma. Thank you Jess, Your the best!!!!!!

happy holloween jezzmo,yesturday i was out in the shop and heard the church bell ring,i looked out and it began to snow, i walked outside and looked to heaven-thought of you-and cried. ohhh how you loved the first snow. what was wierd was a year ago the same exact thing happened,the church bell rang and it began to snow. thanks for the sign and the visit. love you jess and miss you more and more

Happy Halloween Jessie!

Had a great Birthday dinner with Matt, Mama Lisa, and Tim. Love you best friend

Hola Jess, today is October 9, 2010 and last night Tim, Matt, Emilia and I went out to dinner at Ruby Tuesday's. After that we went to the Employee party at the new wing at the hospital where I work. There was a band and lots of food and drink, and the new wing is just beautiful. We all had a good time and stayed for about 2 hours. Matt and Emilia had a good time also getting to meet all my co- workers. There was a ton of people there. I just had to tell you how proud of Emilia I am. When we went to get her tattoo she was so scared, especially when she thought a really weird guy was going to do it for her. But she got lucky, he was doing a tattoo for someone else. A younger gentlemen did her tattoo. She was so brave and never shed a tear even though it hurt her alot. She did it for you Jess and I love the saying she had tattooed acrossed her rib cage. "She flies with her own wings, Jessie Faye<3. I just love it and I was so proud of her to do that for you. All of the fund raisers are done this year for your Memorial Fund. It has been the best year so far, I was able to deposit a large sum of money into the fund for Scholarships in your name. Matt and myself even played golf in the Tournament this year and we had a ball. Love you Jess Mom

HI JESS, IS'T SUNDAY MORNING AND I'M AT WORK AND HAVE A FEW MINUTES TO SIT.  THESE LAST 2 MONTHS HAVE BEEN BUSY WITH THE GOLF TOURNAMENT AND THE BREAKFAST.  NOW THAT IT IS OVER I CAN BREAK DOWN( WHICH I'M DOING RIGHT NOW) WHEN THINGS ARE BUSY LIKE THEY WERE AND NOW THAY ARE DONE IT FEELS LIKE SOMEONE PULLED THE RUG OUT FROM UNDER ME.  ALL OF THE SUPPORT THAT WE ARE RECEIVING IS AMAZING. BUT IT JUST ISN'T WORTH IT I WANT YOU BACK SO BAD AND I HATE THIS SO MUCH, JUST LIKE EMELIA SAYS.  I WANT TO CRAWL INTO A HOLE SOMETIMES AND STAY THERE.  I MISS YOU SO MUCH.  MOM

In about one hour I will turn 21 years old. I hate it, I wish it wouldn't come. No one is really here to celebrate with me this year. Julia and Mandy are at Potsdam, Elaina in London, Sarah in South Carolina, and you in heaven. Whats a birthday with no girl friends. Makes me feel more alone and sad. 21 is suppose to be big deal, but not for me. I wish know one knew it was my birthday, kinda wish we could by pass it make it a normal day. I'm sorry Jessie that I am so sad. I miss you so much!!!!

hi sweets, hey jess welcome tim dillenback to heaven for us. So young but the perfect candidate for a fellow angel. ease the pain of his family and comfort them when needed. Shine on them as you do us Jess. Rest in peace timmer.

I did it, I did it. I got a tattoo. I had the best time ever with your mom that night. You would have been laughing right along with us. Thank you Jessie

The tattoo reads, she flies with her own wings, Jessie Faye <3

Too me this means everything. Jessie is not like everyone else in heaven. She doesn't just not exist and once you die all angels are NOT the same. She is Jessie, plain and simple. She has her same personality and she is independent. She is unique and she is still just Jessie. She is my best friend. Now she flies with her own wings, the wings god gave her that day.  I love you and I miss you sooo much.

Hey sis i miss you sooo much!!! I havent been on here in a long time and reading all of these posts brings back soo many awesome memories that we have and that everyone has with you. :) The more i read, the more i want to cry but i know u would just tell me to suck it up so i wont cry for u. I miss all of the great time we had like down at the creek swimming laps and writing them down in your record book, and dylan getting leeches on him!!! Haha that was halarious! I came back to our old house in omar last week and went in the tree house and the first thing i saw was our names written in glitter glue of course! It flooded my head with so many memories of us. Theres just to many memories to talk about all of them so im done. Well i miss you and love you so much! see you soon love your lil bro

I love you Jessie Faye <3

Hi Miss Jess,  Another vacation has come and gone.  I spent a week with your mom and Tim in the BIG city of OMAR.  NOT MUCH HAS CHANGED THERE except I missed seeing RED in the pasture across the road.  What shock to hear her story.  The garden was beautiful as was the yards.  Your mom and I did some shopping and had lunch with friends. Visited with friends we hadn't seen in a while. I got to see Sarah at the Gal's and Emelia came by the house for a visit on her way to work.  What a busy gal she is.  Her life is so full as yours would have been if you were here with us.  You and Jon are greatly missed as so much up there reminds me of both of you.  When I returned home I had an e-mail message from a student at the University of Florida.  She requested an interview with me about Gardasil and how it has effected our lives.  She had the first shot but found out by research that there was a problem with it.  She is now telling all of the side effects and is spreading the word about all she has found out through her research. 
Omar days is coming up in a few weeks.  I wish I could be there but it looks like another year will go by before I can help celebrate it with your mom, Tim and all of the Omar gang.  Looks like your mom will be playing golf when the next Jessica Ericzon golf tournament comes up in September. Preperations are underway to make it a great sucess as it was last year.  I had a dream last night that Jonny was fishing on a cloud and you and Red were running thru the clouds just having so much fun.  I guess you were both on my mind.  Miss you both.
SHINE ON!!!